wow. my fingers & hand are REALLY hurting. this is new. i haven't had this kinda pain b4. itz not just stiffness, it really hurts. i've been staying away from ibuprofen products, but idk if i can go without it 2day!

Happy New Year's Eve Eve! Christmas came & went! Alot of hype 4 jus 1 day! I heard sum1 say Christmas needs 2 be a 3 day event/holiday! I agree. Bcuz there is alot of hype leading up 2 1 day & then itz over! I usually have such profund sadness the day after Christmas bcuz of the letdown after all of the building up, but this yr was very different...bcuz i was soooooo broke this yr I didnt have any building up, so there was no letdown! I was sad leading up to & during Christmas. But yay itz over. Now time to ease jnto a new year. Ease i say! We'll see about the ease part. Idk how that story is gonna b written. We'll have 2 wait & see. Well gotta go...gotta lot of bilateral finger/hand/wrist joint pain! Ouch!

New place 2 live, new job.....& of course.....new problems! But i have 2 hold on 2 the belief...."that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." im tryna decrease stress 2 help manage my disease & in sum wayz it has been decreased, but the stress also changed 2 different stressors! So 4 now, physically i've been doin aight, no major symptoms goin on, so i con't 2 b blessed! I hope every1 has a very Merry Christmas as we hopefully focus on the reason 4 this season & NOT get caught up in the hype of commercializm! Thatz an easy focus 4 me this year bcuz i'm broke! Lol. Gotto go & see how life turns out as my world spins....

Wow. Itz been a lonnnnng time since i blogged! My life has been sooooo hectic lately! I moved (temporarily), changed jobs (started this past Mon), i' still the adventurer leader @ my church & the kids graduated 2 move on to their next class! Just so much going on! I hope everything works out with this new job bcuz it cuts my commute down by 1-1/2hrs! Whew! As far as the lupus....i still have my crappy moments....but im blessed....it could b soooo much worse! I had sum type of allergic/hypersensitive response about 2 wks ago. Idk know what i was having a bad response 2.....thatz the difficult part. Since idk what caused the problem, i cant avoid it, so i never know when/if it'll happen again! I was in bad shape! Fever/chills, difficulty breathing, i thought i was leavin this earth! But as usual God saw me thru! Im still here. Praise Him! Til next time as my world turns/spins & does back flips......